New lessons, a new friend too.

Hi once again. how have you been? haha. good i hope. hmmm this entry is just a few days from the previous, lol rare! Anyway, i guess i’ve been having some spare time nowadays, everythings rather settled down now. its peaceful to say the least. I guess i’m beginning to really really take on a new outlook on my life and those around me. haha and i guess this new outlook is one that is really relaxed, not the "i don’t give a rat’s ass" outlook but more of the "hey, what’s the hurry" type. Whenever i’m alone walking or doing something else, time seems to really slow down, like slow motion. And, i kinda enjoy it because it gives me plenty of time to think, analyse and embrace or take in things that happen.

I made a new friend recently too! and i’m glad i did. not only because i think the person’s really nice/great and all but also the fact that new things bring new lessons. Every new opportunity/chance/happening, brings new lessons for me i guess. I seem to have the inept ability to really look further into things and see the meaning in between the lines. Haha, i could just stare into the midnight sky, have a chat with God, think about people i want to, or just clear my mind. But every experience like this brings new inspirations and thoughts to me. One lesson i learnt from such a new experience, though it took me sometime to realise it, but i learnt that all of us, no matter big/small, poor/rich, ugly/beautiful, young/old, we all get through the days, by using or holding unto what we have. Cherishing what we have now, and using both the knowledge and the fact that it can bring you, tomorrow. And i guess to many or some, having tomorrow might be the greatest gift of all. Think about those who fall in this category, there are in fact many who wish they could have tomorrow, for at least one more day. Thus, we get by with what we have.

Another lesson i learnt out of the blue was not to be afraid of your flaws. Yes, flaws might seem ugly to some, but i guess flaws are viewed from within. If you really look at it, your flaw, might be somebody else’s desire. But, i say, never fret. Try and learn to embrace these flaws, no matter how ugly, obscene, uncomfortable a feeling they may pose, one needs to be at peace with it. Nobody’s perfect as they say. Ah, yes, people may say things that may be hurtful to you, but try to think of it as them having a reflex thought or action to counter their own flaws. Nobody is perfect, there is bound to be a certain aspect to a person from which he/she will never feel comfortable about, and this may be a flaw.

I was on the bus today. it was a rather quiet afternoon. and the bus had only me and another man. but the events that unfolded kinda struck me somehow and i really saw something special. A few stops down the road, an elderly couple came on board. But, no, the bus did not jet off like the rest who were rushing to complete its rounds, to my amazement, the bus stopped at the bus stop for quite a while. At that time i felt puzzled. then i reminded myself. Oh, the elderly couple. The bus driver was actually waiting for them to be safely seated before he moved off. Once i realise that, i looked to the rear mirror of the bus and i smiled. the driver returned that smile too. It was silent. but it was understood. And the thing is, no one else seemed to notice. not even the elderly couple. I guess its these little things that goes unsaid or unseen, that really made me assure myself, "hey, there are people who actually care." And, i thank god everytime for people like this. I mean, there ARE people who will complain or bitch about or scold the bus driver under their breaths, when the bus stopped. They fail to realise what’s really going on. And i hope someday, their eyes and minds will open. I guess everyone’s too busy or rushing to really pick out the small little things that happen everyday, that really make the world a better place to live in. Sadly, i guess it will stay that way.

Down the road, there was a primary school kid, who came up the bus rather frantically. He looked at me, i smiled at him, then he look puzzled. Haha. real funny moment there. i guess to some, smiles cannot be trusted. haha. oh well, i pictured myself at his age, that brought many memories back, and i somehow laughed at myself. who knew, i would become like this now, haha who knew. And who knows what i will be next time. I guess no one ever knows. When i alighted, there were a few "hooligans" probably not having school, very definitive as they had long dyed hair. Making a rackus and probably not known to them, a fool of themselves. then i thought to myself, i was like that once! haha. no, not the dyed long hair part. but the HOOLIGAN part. then i thought to myself, how did i ever grow out of that, haha. to now be able to distinguish my actions and take a step back and really think before actually doing it. or to simply marvel at the simplicity of things/actions that happen around me everyday. This, ive learnt somehow and i guess its really really handy. is this what they call mature? i dunno. To think so much and yet, hey im only 18 haha. theres a whole looooooong road ahead. and i guess, i wana take that road with the best shot i can give and hopefully not walk it alone. i mean no one really wants to take the road alone. its too long and too scary. haha.

well i’m gonna stop here. cheers and good luck each and everyone of your endeavours. take things with a pinch of salt and cherish what you have. Friends, family and other things that really matter.

Cheers

Juls