i’m not sure where i left my title

i have sat here long enough waiting for this hidden thought to ooze back into my head.  i’m thinking it’s not going to happen for awhile and i’m ready to go to bed.

last week on wednesday i think, dustin and keith showed me a midsize dark blue box.  with a printed name tag on it.  something wrapped from a store.  my name was on the box.  "from all of us to you".  they put the box in a bookcase in the big room so i could see it all the time.  they are so funny.
the next day after dinner, they gave me the box and told me to open it.  they kept saying things like they knew i didn’t want to want till mother’s day to open it and that they wanted me to do what i wanted to do and were going to let me go ahead and open it early.
i had never even  said a word about it.  i kind of like the idea of having a gift on mother’s day.
but i opened it.

a kindle fire from amazon.  i made a noise like a little kid too.  lolly went with keith and dustin on it.  i have been looking at them since they dropped to $200.  i could never give a professional speech on why i think people should buy it, but what reading i had done, made me think it would be the most useable for me and what i wanted it for.

i want to watch youtube.  mostly.
at my work table.
i have a ton of tutorials saved to my laptop.  i’d like to use them where i need them.  as it is now,  if i need to refer to a tutorial aka tut, i have to go to the kitchen, bring up the tut if it’s not already up and look at what i need to see, go back to my work station and get resettled until the next time i need to check on something else.  when i got the laptop, i thought i could do that with it.  it’s not easy at all to do it.

i want to read books again.  and i want to watch movies in my bedroom.
i will be doing all of that now.

the actual day of mother’s day was kind of strange here.  donnie texted me ‘happy mother’s day!’.  i texted back, ‘thank you’.  and that was that.  never heard back from him the rest of the day.  dustin wanted my attention that afternoon to make a menu.  he had me confused asking me what else i wanted him to put with an item for sides.  it was a chicken dish and he was trying to ask me what other meat i thought he should put with it because keith does not eat chicken very well.  i was not understanding that.  i thought he continued to want me to think up something else as a side dish.  i was getting annoyed till i figured it out and then i started laughing about it.  he got mad.
told me he was a little worried about me and i might be going crazy a little bit.
asshole.  great big baby is what he is and a sore loser.
then i called lolly in the afternoon.  she was busy when i called, so i told her to call me back later and she better not blow me off.  
she called me back.   i told her how my day had gone and we laughed.  she was having a good day with her fiance and miss hannah.  al and hannah got her flowers and a card and hannah made something and i’m sorry to say, i can’t remember what lolly said it was.
maybe because i’m crazy.  what. ever.

i got new glasses on mother’s day too.  they suck so bad right now.  i got two pairs.  one for close up and one for distance.  and both are difficult to use because they are different.  i also know i just have to stick with it and find the sweet spots in the lenses.

i went to a new medical pcp today.  i have to go back some morning this week to do fasting labs.  i went in to see what we can do about lower back pain.  it is at a point where it is getting in the way of everything and causes way to many physical problems.  standing and sitting.  walking.
we are going to try a lidocane patch.  and some more steroids.  just five more days of them.  he says it should help us get a leg up on this mess.   i am also going to start using claritin and see if my allergies will be better.  he’s tossing in eye drops for grins.  and there is nothing in my left ear.  but it feels like there is.  it feels like i forgot to take my ear bud out.  i don’t use earbuds in my left ear.  i only use my right ear.  it’s weird. 

i’m not going to say my dog is potty trained yet.  everytime i do she acts like she does not have a concept of inside and outside being separate places for different things. 
she likes to think she can boss me.  and tell me no. 
dumbass keeps forgetting where cookies come from.
all kidding put down, i’m glad i am a dog owner again.  she is my little buddy. 
we are going to bed, but first i am going to leave a picture of an experiment. 

the ONLY metal in this necklace is the sterling silver beads, two of them, one at each end of the tube, and some tiny twisted wire jump rings to cover the short piece of beading wire the tube is held with.  it looks like new-age art-deco.
say goodnight blanca!
aren’t those ears hilarious?