Today

I got described as ‘rude’

By a Christian, no less.Well, fuck you, you little holier than thou person. I’d like to define ‘Christian’ to you at some point because I don’t think you define it very well, judging by your actions.

Rant over. (however, I will brood on it later when in bed and be unable to sleep)

Tonight, I need to talk to people – I’ve realised I have precisely *no* friends in London (well, no-one outside of work really bar Lauren). Feel a bit lonely. Haven’t seen my family in over a month (though I make an attempt to call them every day). Am currently winding Mike up about working in IT. Mind you, he’s doing well for himself since he moved to work in Cardiff.  That’s probably because he’s a genius. No, he really is… No good with women though. Shame, he’s a catch…

Played my guitar for a bit earlier. I miss jamming with my dad.

He’s never seen my AC30, though I think he’d like to…

On the up side of today, I had a fairly quiet day in work. Got to the end of a looooong to-do list which had been building up all week. Also, while I was working on a pile of paperwork, I discovered a new band. Go to http://www.pandora.com (if you’ve never heard of it, it calls itself ‘radio’ but it’s not really – more of a random playlist generator. Anyhoo, go check it out). Type in ‘The Sea & Cake’ . If you’re into bands like Mercury Rev, The Strokes, The Silver Jews, Pavement, Teenage Fanclub, The Magic Numbers… that sort of thing, you’ll probably like them.

Column is still proving popular in Broadcaster’s Bulletin magazine – my final nod to my old Volts Show project (which is self destructing happily – Shell left the other day claiming she’d had enough of it). It’s a bit of a shame, as I put my life into that at one time and since I left it got ruined by stupid bickering and egos. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Still, even though I got a job out of it, I don’t want to forget the bands that worked for it. Hence why I put my job on the line to write a column for my old company (which would lead to me getting fired from Radioworks) but it gets the bands out to about 3000 people in radioland so that’s all ok.  It’s supposed to be developed into something else (i.e., podcasts and things) but I don’t think I’m gonna be able to devote much to it right now. I’m kept on my toes at Radioworks as we’re busy as hell at the mo. Production is doing ok, so much so, that I think I might have paid my own wages by about April.

Back to family stuff though, I wish I was able to see mine as easily as Lauren is able to see hers. In a way, I’m jealous – is that wrong? My Dad is 60 in May and my Gran still isn’t too well. My Mum seems to be ok. I really miss them all, even though I get wound up when I’m there, probably because I live on my own now and am not used to someone moaning at me to ‘help out’. Haha, strange isn’t it? I’m sure it’s not unique to me though.

I’m missing alot right now. (ooh, Death Cab For Cutie is on Pandora) I want to have fun and… oh I dunno. London is just getting me down. Lauren and I did make use of it for Valentine’s Day though – we spent Saturday in The Natural History museum. Was such a nice day, acting like kids. She wrote me this book for a present, with all the things she loves about me… in her words, it’s ‘ego boosting’ but it’s from her so it’s not, somehow. Just… a nice thoughtful gift. She also got me a bear… hehe.

Wish I was as thoughtful as that. Sometimes (alot of the time) I know I’m not a patch on her.

I’ve got alot to write about tonight.

I wish London was a more colourful city and everything wasn’t a shade of dirty grey. I wish I could go home to a family every night. I wish I didn’t feel like moaning.

I should stop now, maybe. I think I’m starting to get a bit too into this…