Let it snow?

OK, so here in NM we have a saying;  "if you don’t like the weather, just wait 15 minutes". Two days ago it was almost 80 degrees and we had all the windows in the house open. Today, schools just 30 miles East of us are closed and I drove through slush to take Buddy to school! I know that it’s snowed as late as May, even a few days before Memorial Day weekend. Funny but when the weather forecast was for rain and snow and they were talking about it April 1st, I kept thinking, "I wonder when they’re going to say ‘April Fool!’" Silly me.

All our hard work in the courtyard couldn’t have come at a better time, After cleaning all the dust and leaf mess and crud out of the corners and off the paving stones, everything is getting a cleaning by Mother Nature. I feel like other things need a cleaning out too, like some of the attitudes some of my friends have been displaying lately.

I was friends with one woman for almost 10 years and then her life changed as did mine about 2 years ago and I haven’t heard from her much. On my birthday she drops me an email out of the blue wishing me a happy birthday. My contact with her over the past 2 years was spotty at best and always left me feeling like she wasn’t fully connecting with me the way we used to do. I pointed that out to her in my reply back to her to which she got very defensive. I took a few days and then replied with a calm, well thought out email of my own offering to meet for coffee since I thought electronic means had failed us and maybe it was time for a face to face meeting. Her reply was slow in coming but yesterday she sent me an email that really didn’t address any of the things I had said but just wanted to end our friendship before we hurt each other further. I was scratching my head on this one since she is supposedly a counselor and she didn’t even take into account my feelings and just cut things off. I guess she was just willing to cut things off because she didn’t want to own up to what had taken part for her part. Oh well! Might make things interesting at school functions since our sons are at the same school in the same grade and still on good terms. At least I can walk away knowing I tried.

Another friend I had a recent falling out with is sort of talking with me again. She and I had been working on some sewing projects for SCA stuff and just the week before my birthday we were talking about both of our birthdays and how she was going to have more of a party to celebrate hers. OK, that was all well and good but then she promptly forgot mine! Then she has the nerve to ask for my mailing address to send me an invite to her "Ladies’ Tea" for her birthday, for which we were all to pay our own way to the tune of $40/person!! I replied back that given the circumstances, my RSVP was no. She didn’t understand. Hubby talked to her husband about something unrelated a few days later and he told her husband that she forgot my birthday and I was a bit sore about it but still nothing from her. It wasn’t until I was talking to a mutual friend that I told her why I didn’t attend and not to tell the other friend why. Obviously she did  tell her because no sooner than I got home when I got an "I’m sorry" text from the forgetful friend! At this point I just want the whole thing to be forgotten and move forward because I really really don’t want to hear endlessly about her birthday party attended by people I really don’t care for and how wonderful it was!!! Nope, not going there. I did email her yesterday about something totally unrelated and I’m waiting to see what I hear from her.

I know I have issues with relating to people at times, some of it comes from the Asperger’s and some of it from the cognitive impairment from the Chemo. I know I have to just let some things go and just move forward. I just seem to be having a ton of these difficulties in the past year or so but it just doesn’t seem to end. My BFF is incredible and very understanding and is my sounding board when I get into emotional times, as well as Hubby. They seem to just swoop in and smooth things over and make me feel better. I love them both and don’t know where I would be w/o them!!

I guess it’s a good day to just let the rain and snow wash all this junk away…….

J