3:44 p.m.

On 4/30 (sunday), I went out with Joann for a little while. She had just gotten back from France. We were talking about how she wanted to break up with Rob. Other than that, I was home all day, mainly talking to Kim on the phone.

4/31 (monday), I found out that Kim does have mono, and she probably won’t be able to go out for at least another week or two. I was at Rays house and his aunt went out for a couple of hours. We went to his basement and I finished the little that was left of his 190 proof everclear. We then drank a lot of gin mixed with soda and sat in Rays backyard. I called Kim while still drunk and then Rob came over for a little while. Me and Ray went to cool beans for a while and then Carol drove us home.

5/1 (tuesday), I was really hung over in the morning. I talked to Bucky and lunch and he told me he had some pills. We went into the bathroom and he crushed the pill. I went into the stall and snorted it. Damn!!!!!!!!!! It was so good!!!!!!!!! I was so hyper and I was in such a good mood!!!!!!!!! After school though, I just came home and sat around for the rest of the day. I talked to Kim for awhile too.

Today again at lunch I snorted some more speed. It wasn’t as good as yesterday, but it was still good. I went to shoppers with Emily and Bob was sitting in his car and scared the shit out of me. Out of nowhere, I hear him say “where ya goin?” I said nowhere and he told us to get back to the school. He drove away so me and Emily went around to shoppers a different way.

Michelle started acting weird today. She was acting distant and it seemed like she didn’t want to be around me. It could just be in my head, but it still hurts. Also at lunch, Joann broke up with Rob. He was really pissed at first, but he seemed to get over it quickly. So did she. And once again, Jenine was being an annoying little sh*t. She wouldn’t leave Rob alone. He finally told her to go away and I think she got pissed and stormed off. Good. Anyway, I know I have feelings for Joann to an extent, but I don’t know if I’m going to do anything about that. I’m supposed to call Joann. I think I will soon. I’ll probably call Kim too.

Eric said that he will probably be able to get weed tonight for me, him and Rob. I told Rob to call Eric at 7 if Eric doesn’t call him by then, and then call me. So we’ll see what happens.