2:12 p.m.

FU*K THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I’m not going to Kims house (surprise, surprise), Michelle probably can’t do anything, and if she can, it will only be for a couple of hours. And I have three cigarettes. My grandmother started yet another useless argument with me. Michelles parents are being dicks to her, especially her dad. And even though yesterday Kim said I could definitely come over, I should have known she was going to say I can’t. What the fu*k?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!? I want to get out of here now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Eric has a blunt that we’re going to smoke tomorrow night. I called him to see if we could do it tonight, but his line was busy. Great. So now, I have to wait for Michelle to call me when her parents get home. I hate waiting for people to call. And when her parents get home, they’ll probably say she can’t go anywhere.

Why am I watching pokemon? This show is fu*king retarded.

I just called Eric again, and of course the line is still busy.

These past few days have just been one big suckfest. And I hate being sober! This is my third day in row being sober. I swear, my grandparents better be going out to dinner. And they better leave the key to the basement door behind. I’ll be so happy if they do. ALCOHOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really need to not be sober right now. And I need more cigarettes. And I need pussy. I hope Michelle can come over. If she hasn’t shaved, I’ll just get my electric razor and shave her.

Let’s try Eric again————STILL BUSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fu*king sh*t, my mom is on the phone. I hate talking to her on the phone. It’s the same shit over and over again.

I swear, I am so pissed right now. I almost blew up at Kim. I feel like breaking some sh*t right now. Watching MTV isn’t helping my bad mood, but there is nothing else on.

Dammit, I need some pussy, now! Dammit Michelle!

I wish I had c.d.’s by slayer. I could go for some slayer right now. I don’t feel like listening to the other death/doom metal bands that I have c.d.’s of. At the gates, six feet under and meshuggah just wouldn’t hit the spot right now.

I think I’ll go listen to some music now. Maybe some more Fear Factory. If Michelle doesn’t call back in a little while, I’ll just call her back.