12:32 a.m.

I went to Michelle’s house today. We couldn’t stay so we walked here. We got really, really close. It got really passionate. Damn. We went out with Eric and smoked at greenway when walking Michelle home. After I smoked, things between me and Michelle felt weird. I can’t explain it but for some reason it really hurt.

Me and Eric walked to Ray’s house. I called Kim. I didn’t stay on the phone for long. I apologized for not talking to her much today. I said “I love you.” She said “I do too.” Why did the absence of one word hurt so much?

Anyway, Ray took the rest of his gin and poured it in my soda. His aunt came out shortly after and was talking to us about the stupidest things. I did a good job of maintaing though. Not Eric. Eric looked sick. It was funny because I was drinking the soda with the gin in it while talking to his aunt.

We went to cool beans and I saw Michelle Taormino and Jolene Ong there. Of course I was still messed up, but I did my best to talk and joke around with them. Somehow, I don’t think they like me very much.

When I got home, it was hell. Not because of my grandparents for once. Jenine called me. What a dumba$$! She is so goddamn annoying. She was talking like she always does. “So what have you been up to- Oh that’s cool,” in that same fake little girl voice. She claimed to not have meant getting into a debate about friendship and feelings, but I know damn well that’s why she called. She claims to be over our relationship. Bullsh*t. It’s sickening. What, does she think that she is going to get Rob? I pray that he has more sense than that. But it’s his decision in the end. She keeps trying to make me feel guilty and try to comfort her somehow .And she keeps trying to justify the same things over and over again!!!! Why won’t she leave me alone?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

-The video game (avoiding the hole)

-Pussy is good, it’s what it’s attached to that sucks

-“Who are we hunting?””- We aren’t hunting, we’re being hunted.” “Well that sucks. I like hunting. I don’t like being hunted.”

I have to talk to Michelle tomorrow. I’ll probably wind up talking to Kim too. Whatever