1:11 a.m.

I’m going to bed soon, after I have a cigarette. Sh*t, I have to get more tomorrow.

I wish I was stoned right now. I love thinking about things when I’m stoned. It’s amazing how much the mind can be expanded.

I really hope I can see Kim tomorrow. I also want to see Michelle tomorrow, but without Ashley. Let’s see- I have to get cigarettes, go to Kims house and watch a movie, go and see Michelle somehow. Alright, if all goes right tomorrow, that’s what will happen. I wonder if Michelle shaved her pussy. I want to find out, but should I? You know, people say that you should sit down and think about things- but what happens when you can’t come to a conclusion?

“Nothing is left for me to gain- Now come and take me far away”-Kud- MuDvAyNe

You know, at times, the things I think about scare me.

Tom Petty sucks.

Two months from today and I turn 17. SH*T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This sucks!!!!!!!

I don’t want to get older. I wish I had enjoyed my earlier youth more. But with all the bullsh*t I’ve had to deal with in my life, I didn’t really have a choice. Cristinas birthday is on may 17th. Great. She wants me to fu*k her on her birthday. Something else to think about. Just what I need now. I guess this is my own fault though. You know, steady relationships didn’t work, now multiple hook-ups are creating their own hell. I guess I dug my own grave.

“Dig- Bury me- Underneath- Everything that I am- Slowly changing”-Kud- MuDvAyNe

Kud, Spag, Gurgg and Ryknow are four very smart people.

I think I’m done. Cigarette, then sleep. Wake up and call Kim. Base tomorrow on that.

Goodnight Conan.