The bags under my eyes.

I have some serious problems where I take advantage of people. I did it with Jeni, after she did it with me, but that’s old, that’s 3 years ago. I’m an asshole. I’m having a good day too, I’m not depressed, just disappointed and angry at myself. I’m an asshole. It’s been so nice outside, I’ve had my window open while I play Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas, which is clogging my mind with cuss words.

It’s a very messed up game. But it’s one of my top two of all time. I should’ve said the “f-word” there but I don’t want to cuss, it makes me feel like more of an asshole. I’m An Asshole, why can’t I change?

I’ve been feeling more rested and exhausted lately, being able to fall right asleep (assuming I don’t masturbate just before, because then I guess my stamina come into play. I usually masturbate during the day now). It may be the weather outside though, I’m not sure.

My tickets for New York were bought a few days ago. I’m very excited about that. I’m almost 21. Life is so much better with friends. (I almost said without Jenn, but really without Jenn, then I have friends, so it would mean the same thing.) I feel like this is going to be a good winter-time, and I never want to give up winter again.

Seems like Dave’s doing a lot better, I’m happy for him. Few years ago when we weren’t friends (which used to happen a lot) I emailed him because I was afraid he’d get famous and I couldn’t stay his friend. That was kind of assholish, so I guess I’m less of one now. That’s good. I love him, and really hope he makes it.

It’s such a nice day to have the window open. I don’t want to fuck with girls anymore. It’s so stupid.