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Maybe I did ruin everything by yelling at her. (Yeah, I yelled at her, didn’t just yell. I turned into an asshole.)

She didn’t call me tonight, the night she was supposed to break up with Mike.

(Well, last night was that too, and the night before.)

But she didn’t call, and that’s what’s most important, and I went over there, called her mom’s cell, rang the doorbell, Nothing.

And I Feel Like She’s Avoiding Me.

I was okay tonight because I trusted her fully. It was serious, I trusted her.

but i fucked things up didn’t i.

I guess I’ll see when I go over there in the morning, I suck i suck i usck.

God I do.

What if she just fell asleep? Well then she probably didn’t break it off.

What If I Ruined Everything. With my embarrassment. I hate myself. I hate it.

I want her love. I’ve given her everything, and I messed it all up because I have low self-esteem.

(And I’m even still feeling bad for myself.)

I don’t know how I’ll sleep.