Now, here.

Last night Amber came by and we watched Lost and watched “Pretty in Pink,” which I liked alright. We just get along.

Today I was wondering (out loud, to a friend) where the point comes where I feel the need to “date” someone, since I just feel so comfortable as a friend around her that it’s not the momentum of my thought, whether or not we’ll be together.

On the drive home, I was telling my roommate how during Melissa God brought me to a verse in the Song of Solomon, a verse that says, “He is my lover. He is my friend.” And she is my friend.

I brought her some tissues today, because she’s sick. On one of her texts, she called me “buddy.” That kind of pushed it in me that it’s probably time to bring it up, as she gives me other signs.

So, I’m praying that God will establish a relationship between us, as truly I’d like to love her. So, I’ve been readind the Old Testament, Ezekiel, and God is angry at Israel in that book. I opened my Bible up to a random page as I was thinking about what to do with Amber. It opened to a verse from Isaiah, chapter 41. God talks about his strength, and how Israel can trust in him.

I’m going to approach this desire of mine with Amber, and we’ll see if it’s in God’s will.

I’m praying that he’ll turn her heart toward me.