Not so blue today.

I led my small group tonight, it went very well. I’m in an extremely hyper mood, so this won’t be the best writing, but I can live with it. I’m doing better the past few days regarding loving myself. I’m trying not to get stuck on girls – I did, and I went downhill for a bit. I love God. I said “God bless” to someone tonight, a guy in my small group, and it didn’t feel awkward, it felt natural. My pastor challenged me to just say thank you when people compliment me – and nothing else. Tonight it worked pretty well. When I get hyper, I get less thoughtful of others around me; I should wind down.

My hyperness didn’t affect anyone today, I don’t think, so that’s good. I understand, and it’s okay, that girls aren’t into me right now – I feel very good. I use “–” a lot when I’m hyper, I guess. I went to a wedding on Friday, and they only played 2 songs – (see?) Bob Dylan and Coldplay, and it wasn’t a bad Coldplay song, it was “Till Kingdom Come”, which was written for Johnny Cash, but then he died.

I was still hating myself that night. (I love God.) I really enjoy spending more time around Christians, and not for the reason you might think – not ‘cause we all agree with each other or something, but because I end up having my mind be on God a lot more. It’s like how life should be.

I’m moving out of my apartment in 3 weeks, and I’m not embarrassed about it. I’m moving back in with my mom, and my now step-dad, and hopefully it will shape me a bit more. I’ll miss this apartment. I will be living with my mom for 6-12 months. Then, hopefully, I will live with Christians – again, not so much because we have the same thoughts (although that will be cool), but because I’ll have God on my mind a lot more.

I think I’ll go now, but this coming weekend I have this leadership summit I’m going to. And I just thought I’d mention it, because who knows how it will affect me. I hope the best for you.

Sincerely, Jon