My loins are going nuts today.

I’m praying for God to help me. I feel really bad for people living in Lebanon and Israel. That’s really sad. My mother had a hysterectomy and they found cancer in her uterus once they had taken it out. It’s not really affecting me. I feel more sorrow for those with destruction all around them than my own mother. This upsets her, obviously. I love my mom.

Last night there was some HBO documentary on call girls and I kept sneaking peeks, then I would switch away because it’s not right. But I like breasts a lot. 🙂

🙁

I’m not giving in. I feel a lot better not doing it, and it’s upsetting sacrificing it. I know sexual feelings are awesome. I know that I’ve been given them, and that I’ve used them with disregard to God and his plan, and I feel like someday I’ll have a wife who will complete this part of me, which right now is like the frayed end of a shirt.

Phew.

My mother’s womb had cancer. The word womb makes me feel all warm inside. Cancer.

I find it interesting that we die, from a spiritual perspective. My mom is really scared of death. I definitely understand it, and it is really scary, I mean…that we might not exist anymore? I mean, even with faith in a God who restores life, there is a moment, I imagine, where you just have to close your eyes and jump and hope that hands catch you. I imagine it’s a lot like falling.

I guess I just find it interesting that we still have to go through that process of our bodies dying. It’s a very humbling thing, which is cliché to say, but — we are weak, and our death is proof of it.

We must rely on God for strength; for life.

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July 21, 2006

Is which Frou Frou? The pictures? No, those aren’t Frou Frou. That quote was frooom… mmm.. can’t remember. Some show on Comedy Central, methinks. I’ll get back to you on that.

July 31, 2006

Life can really suck sometimes. Peace be with you