My computer is moving faster.

Everythings going right today so far, God I love the cold seasons.

I kept waking up this morning because I was having bad dreams about a girl. My version of anticipation and I think I feel better now because Im out of bed and just okay with everything, partly because

its a beautiful day.

My room, did I tell you yet, I re-did it, rearranged it? And its so much more like My Room now, its a beautiful feeling that I havent felt in a year and a half.

At home.

I also dont know if I already told you (Ive been lazy about telling you things lately) I had another religious dream the other night and it was amazing. I dont care if you think Im crazy, but I felt the love of God inside of me for the first time, I felt like it was all in my blood.

I believe in the afterlife, and Im sorry if you disagree with me. But I still wont go to church. (And I’m sorry Mom.)

God its a great day.

Im also going to finish my online class to get (officially) my high school diploma and did I tell you Im cleaning myself up? I am.

And I called in sick to work for the first time today. And it felt damn good. It still does.

Im a great actor for the sick.

Im rambling and I love it. You know why?

Im feeling comfortable.

grace misplaced.

October 18, 2003

High five to you. So, I think that I read your diary a long time ago…but for whatever reason, I haven’t in awhile, and I just saw your update on the front page, and it looked familiar. Hi again. Good luck with your online course, kudos for your religious dream, and props for rearranging your room. I want to do that to my dorm sometime soon, but I first have to convince my roommate. 🙂

Interesting.

Scripted Confusion

Good. You can come visit my cold feet anytime you’d like, Jon darling.

Now, why won’t you go to church?

dj_johnnyquest

i drink and drive on beautiful days.

its not about going to church, its about having a personal relationship with our savior, jesus christ.