I get so upset when people aren’t perfect.

I just got off work and in hindsight am not very happy with it. But let’s go on from that, onto the camera.

I love the camera. I’m just playing around with it, getting the hang of it, it’s a little different than the old one, figuring out what interests me in movies, trying not to be repetitive. Because of this mood tonight, which does not usually happen (it’s pretty much me with no sense of humor) I wanted to try and capture that feeling to film, an exercise or something, but I’m just too tired/don’t know how, yet, and I have a little homework anyway, and have to get up in the morning, early, for work.

I think I look for the worst in things.

And I’m trying to figure out how, exactly, to have the feel of film with a video camera. It’s going to look like video, but I think, I think I can just figure out this aura of film, like a — fuck, for some reason I can never remember the word. I will in a little.

I like my life right now. I know I say that every entry but I really appreciate it. MOOD. That’s the word, maybe. We’ll see. I’m still sick, and I’m getting in shape, not talking of getting in shape, Actually Getting.

I want to soothe you with my eyes.

I think that’s it, now. I don’t really remember what that word was.