God is in this dark place.
My room is completely dark right now. Talked with Amber tonight. Although she likes me, she’s not ready for a relationship. So we’re just going to be friends.
I like her a lot. I would like to marry her. (How un-PC of me to say.) But I trust God. So for now I will not pursue her and just be close friends (which means not hanging out as much, and not being alone together late at night).
I’m not going to sulk. I stood in my room for a few moments (in the darkness) to just enjoy the sadness. 2 songs from the “Punch-Drunk Love” soundtrack played on shuffle on the way home.
This is where God wants me. Just wants me to be here.
It is quite refreshing to read your diary as you are learning trust and surrender. I, too, have walked down this path although maybe not the exact same. (I think our thoelogy might be different but what does a name matter? Divine is Divine.) Love
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Thinking of you.
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