Foggy glass.

If you could see how I act I yell a lot inside of my car I talk to myself a lot during classes I am puting all of my anger into my toes I heard everyone has someplace in their body where they transfer their feelings I’m spaced out right now I’m acting a little crazy nervous, eating raisins right now. I’ve emotionally gone ino 3 year old mode, I’m not doing very good.

Manda IMed me last night and told me how judgemental I am and self-centered and selfish, I agree with the judgemental part. She told me that religion’s for weak people, and that’s okay. What was I trying to do? We’re not friends anymore, and she doesn’t like that I tried to “push god on her”. (did i?) Bo told me I should be more tolerant of other people’s beliefs. I’m away from God right now. I almost feel like my extremism, my total lack of tolerance for —

what is tolerance? please, explain this. is it what is it? i’m not gonna say what you believe is what you believe cause, you know I believe in love. i guess i’ve replaced the word “tolerance” with love. people’s ideas which i find blasphemous “well good, at least your thinking”. no, i want to say, i don’t know what to say, not my job, but i’m not going to i give a bad look. and im so sorry, i don’t know how else to respond. what gives me any right to say that I Know. I could be just as lost as anyone, I could be the most lost,

I feel my judgements have blinded my soul from reality.

I’m calm now, and I finished the raisins. It’s cool in this room, summer’s almost over. I wish I knew it all, how stupid

I have anger issues, pretty major ones, and if you could help me, I need a lot of help. I wish the whole world weren’t hypocritical.

I can’t see a thing.