All because of Allah.

He looks at Jesus like I look at Muhammad. Like a concept, like a religion and that’s all. Faith is everywhere, and I have to ask, I mean, how do you talk to someone who has just as much faith in their God as you do, I mean, you listen, which is my problem is I tend to talk, and preach, I should listen, I Should Listen!, yeah. It felt weird how it almost seemed like he was trying to help me through Muhammad…he wasn’t, I know. Most people, in my age bracket at least, are very much about being “cool” with all religions, either because they just don’t care or they don’t want to associate themselves with the stereotype of a certain group. He just wasn’t so into it anymore. I Know Jesus. I know Him, and…that’s why I’m a “Christian”, that’s why I’ve changed so much.

And not because of rules, but relationship. I mean that’s the major difference between Christianity and other religions…I guess you could say Wiccans have a relationship with nature, right? So what’s the difference?

I would say the trust that you give to God, letting Him lead you. Seems to me Wiccans are kind of self-satisfying? Not selfish, neccesarilly, I’m sure there’s some really great Wiccans out there, just…with there not being a “God” there, who else is there to follow but one’s own path.

I do not listen to God all the time, sometimes I make a decision to lead myself, and I always become lost. To give up where you want to go and what you want to do seems like a bad trade to “know” God, but here’s what I have found: when you give it all to him, to the Creator of You, the things He leads you to end up being the things that fulfil you the most, and it’s UN-BELIEVABLE, and it’s scary. At this moment I really do not know where I am, I don’t recognize these surroundings, and I don’t neccesarilly really like them, but I’m trusting that I need to be here to go there, and I think that’s what it all is, it’s travel! and it’s the trip there, and…

For once, you have to close your eyes, and let go of the wheel, and be okay with it. You have to faith.