Worried Senseless

So Im going into hospital on monday to get a brain scan and i’m worried. I know I shouldn’t be coz im sure it’ll be fine but there’s always the doubt which sucks.
My skin on my forhead is peeling and i look like a cabbage – yuck! It hurts as well. The 2 problems are probably entwined.

So this evening me and Stu were huggin when we both started to get turned on. Nothin majorly major happened but we kissed quite passionately. he’s really messing my head about. He knows that i’ll always love him but doin stuff like this will want me 2 want him even more. And I did. And he was texting Sam a few hours later and I started to get annoyed when I shouldn’t have. He really is a head fuck at the moment.
I finally said No to Sam staying the night as well. I wanted to bring Luke back to ours but i dont think he can make it out now. So it may just be a random stranger – or hopefully the man of my dreams.

Ryan (Scotts other halfish thing) emailed me to say that he was flattered that I had said he was hot but wasn’t looking for a relationship. I didnt reply. Altho i felt like saying ‘Nor Am I!!!’
work is meh – its so quiet, i get bored and am just counting down the hours till home time. I started to feel like this in my old job before i left so maybe its good timing me going away.

Spoke 2 Laurence (My friend who moved to Oz) bout me coming out there and I cant wait. I dunno wat i’m gunna do about living / working but thats the fun I suppose. Normally Im a planner guy, works everything out and then goes from there – completely spontaneous this time!

Song for the week  – Placebo – Running up that hill. AMAZING 🙂