The end of the beginning+The beginning of the end

So This weekend has been SHIT. I have had enough now, I will definately write here everyday, Just so fed up and pissed off of it all now.

Ive had the week off work, went to swindon to see my friend. Knew it would be a good idea, get away from Stu and let my head sort itself out. So when I was up there, we were texting each other like we were still together, I really liked it. He’s seeing this new lad now (Hang on, told me he was Bi and after me he wanted to pull a woman?!) So he was talkin bout this new guy and how he thought that he might go back to his ex. Boo hoo! Then we went to Bristol on Friday to see the Fray! That night, we slept with each other 3 times, so he cheated on this new lad. Good start. He said that when we have sex, it feels right and good. Told me he couldn’t get hard for this new chap. So now I have a dilemma – do I tell this new lad?

Then the Saturday, we went out again on the lash and my emotions started running high, he was flirting and acting like a couple hugging and touching in a straight bar – something that after 2 years of being together, I never got and that was a reason why I decided to call it a day. So then My friend spoke 2 Stu and he said that he thought I wanted 2 experiment and sleep around – a.k.a. Slag! I hate that, My head was unclear and it was only when I saw him with someone else I knew what I wanted.

So this new lad is really nice and Stu tells me that he reminds him of me – we’re so alike in every way. Great, so now my friends will reject me and find me in this new lad. Fan-Fuckin-tastic! So I went to the gay club and had a really good time. Then comes the end of the night, alone, everyone had gone home, drunk and broke! So I had to walk 2 miles home and spent the whole time on the phone to my best mate crying my eyes out about work (who are taking the piss), Stu and friends in general. Was so annoyed that no-one had even bothered 2 call and find out when Im there for everyone

My Head is well and truly fucked out of position now. Why Oh Why is life such a Bitch?

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