‘Someone, somewhere, Someday might be interested’

Awww Life!! It sucks!! So I went out on the lash last night for my friends leving party. We started @ mine and got a lil bit drunk then moved onto the bar/clubs. i decided to go to the Gay club on my own as no-one wanted to go. But to cut a long story short, I stayed to closing time with some ppl I made friends with, Andy and Rachel, both of which were gay. We all started walking home together then split due to living in different areas. Rachel went off home and i walked with Andy as he lived in my direction. We’d been gettin on really well, laughing and joking about things. So i was taking the Mick out of him as he said that his apartment had a water feature. He invited me up to see it. I saw it andwe went inside his house to warm up. he showed me his fish and we carried on chatting. He was cold and tired so he went into bed, with me sitting on the floor of his room, just talkin away. he then invited me in to bed as long as no dirty stuff happened, which I was fine with. So we fell asleep and we woke hugging and talking and flirtin which was REALLY nice! We didnt even kiss! Just messing about.

He confuses me. Tells me he has a bf, but lets me sleep in there bed. He’s ‘in the navy’ and is away. wen we were awake, I was lookin at his really gorgeous eyes and nice smile!!! He then said that he wanted me 2 stay an extra hour!! we were hugging and he gave me a few compliments and kept asking if I was ok! He’s so sweet!!! So tonight is our staff party and I get drunk and mess things up by texting and ringing him! OMG I wanna get with him but don’t wanna appear obsessive which Im fully aware I’m seeming!!!

So I sit…I mean lie here, drunk as a skunk, annoyed as Sam is now calling Stu OUR pet names (Stu Bear and Stuey) and on my own.  3 Nights in a row with alcohol – not good. and now I have work in 9 hours. Its all POO!!!

I need helpo!!