Recovery

Oh my god i’ve been so ill over these past few days! Ive had to take time off work, see the doc and go to the hospital, right on Christmas time! I felt so crp last night, in so much pain that I had to go to the hospital. He just gave me strong pain killers which are working a treat. I seem to have a little bit of my appetite back but my jaw still hurts. Stupid ear infection! So this morning I felt better, then I didnt, then and now (fingers crossed) I do! Im so proud of myself coz im not going out tonight (breaking my saturday ritual!). Staying in my room as I feel like I look like the phantom of the Opera today. My skin has fucked up and is flaking.

Meh, I feel like crap. I was just sat in the bath and it was like my thoughts were floating around in the water – outta my ears and into the water. I was thinkin bout how this time next year, I dunno where i’m gunna be, how i’ve nearly gotten fully over Stu, how him and Rob are acting, the whole Scott fiasco and just listening to some tunes. It was a really relaxing, reminiscing time. I was hoping how I’d find the most amazing person over there and they’d follow me back here and we’d live happily ever after…… YEAH RIGHT!!! Although there is this new person who i’ve been kinda looking at they are rather hot!!! But hey, don’t jump the gun!!

Meh, I feel so bad still… weak! Hopefully I will make a miraculous recovery by tommorow night as i cant afford to take ne more time off work! Oh that was another thought as well – leaving there as it’s getting me down and shitty! Maybe february time, i’ll hand my notice in, win the lottery and wait until my plane trip!

And the worst thing is ive still got some christmas shoppin to do! Poo!