Last night!

So i’m feeling a little bit better this morn. Last night was really strange! So I was really happy that it was Friday and I had finished work as it was REALLY pissing me off! We’ve got a staff party on sunday but I don’t think many are going to turn up…. but hey!

So, on my break I went and got a hot chocolate from Costa to see him again… GRRRR he makes my heart melt! So we were talking for a few mins and it was just bout some random stuff! He was telling me that he was joining a gym and not drinking much as to save money. So i went back to work and I dunno wat was in the hot chocolate but was BUZZIN!!! So from then until bout 9, I was in a really good mood!

We decided to go up to the pub.. Friday is me and Hayley day, so we stay close which is really nice. Well Stu was driving as he was picking sam up (his bit of stuff) so we were like ‘Bargain!!!’. I was texting Nikki and she was telling me that this bar man really likes me and can he have my number! Said I was a good kisser which sent my confidence sore sky high! I said yeah and he text me asking if I wanted to go out 1 time! He’s 26, not my type but its a start ya know. Then Scott replied 2 my message I sent him   . hee hee – I asked him if he wanted to have a drink as Im down his local. He told me he was @ the gym but would be bak later! I didnt get my hopes up as he has said this before but hye, made me feel good that he replied!

So up the pub, me and Hayley were so hyper. even with 1! We were singin and dancing and just generally messing about. Talking about chickens catching on fire – random eh?  So then more alcohol came and I started gettin drunk. Hayley then had to go as her mum Is really sick and she had 2 leave her on her own. So she left, we drunk up and got some food. I was messing about in the back and Stu got all shitty bout it. I was like chill out, just having a laugh! We parked up and I had 2 go to the toilet. So I went in and did my stuff and was speaking to someone I used to work with. Stu then came in and started shouting @ me. He said, are you getting in the car or you gunna walk. I said walk and he gave me his house keys then went back to his car. So I walked up the road, sat on the roundabout and ate my food. Pissed off and drunk, I walked back to the pub only to find Stu and sam back there. They then said ‘c’mon we’re goin’

So we drove back to Sams and all the way home, they were touching each other, holding hands and generally flirting. This really annoyed me as I never had that even if there was no-one in a 10 mile radius we couldn’t even touch each other and I mean anythin! At that point I just wanted to run away from everything. So Sam got out and we argued on the way home. We got in and I decided to write the poem.

But – had a weird dream! We were going for a drive, me in the drivers set, stu in the middle and claire in the passengers seat of Stu’s car. We were driving and then Stu handed it over to me, who was drunk and I couldn’t handle it. You no where you see a place in your dreams again and again? It was there so, I lost control of the car and crashed it in to a river. Then Aries and Yuffie from Final Fantasy where there, swimming from the wreck. Sam was on the shore with bruises on his leg and I tried swallowing the water but couldn’t. I told him and Stu that i wanted to hurt them as much as they hurt me and they said they forgave me.

Now, how Fucked up am I?