Decisions

So I’m now in bed – after Jodie and Lex came round. Sam and Stu were also with us. I love Jodie to bits, I really do. She really is a cracking friend. She has given me so much confidence within myself and she told me how good I truly was and am. I wish that she was always here but then again, it makes the times we spend together whens she’s back extra special. So Sam and Stu were kissing and huggin and yeah I still get jealous but I dont think i’m jealous of either of them any more – just what they have with each other. I think by the time I leave for Oz, i’ll be completely over him, making my trip seem worthless but definately worthwhile at the same time.

I’ve got some big decisions to think of  though. I’m not sure that I want to return to Plymouth when I return home. Sure I’ll be here for christmas 2008 but I dunno if i’m gunna stay. I just don’t think the right person is here. But then there is the saying that you get what you want if you DONT look. My god – my head is messed @ the moment. It really doesnt help living in the same house as Stu and that we’re still really good friends. If it ended messy and we hated each other it wud be so easy. GRRRRR!!

I have a new fav song – No One by Alisha Keys. Just the whole song is great.