A little help is required….

Ok so this is now entry number 4, but the last 3 were written a while ago but just not uploaded. But I need some help!!

So I’ve now moved to Sydney and i’m loving my new life here – I can be myself and do what I want without people moaning or complaining cause essentially, I dont have millions of people to think of – Of course In spirit I do but …. you know….
Anyways, I have made some really decent new friends here in good ol ‘Stralia and one of them goes by the name of Stephen. Now, he’s 32, so still in my kinda age range that I would go for and he lives in the same place as my friend Chris. Me, Chris and Stephen have been for dinner a few times now and I get on really well with him. When I first laid eyes on him, I was instantly attracted, you know the feeling? So, we’ve flirted a little bit but nothing to get tounges waggling and I saw after we went out for dinner on the first night with him, that he and Chris had made a video in which he says he ‘has an interest’ in me. So, not jumping the gun, I play along, pretend I havent seen the video etc.

So a few weeks ago he went to visit this boy that he had randomly met. Well I say boy, he’s about 22. Anyways, they hooked up and they do all this bondage / leather / kinky shit that kinda interests me but not that much. So, after dinner one night, I went back to Stephens with Chris and he started showing me all this gear. I was a bit taken back coz he had spent like $1000 on all this stuff. He was drinking as well so when we were talking, he was rubbin his leg against mine, not anything serious, but just the little touches. And before I left, he was messing around with the handcuffs and said to me that he was having a party next Saturday (AKA Yesterday) and that i had 10 days or something to get ready. I thought it was a bit strange with this other guy.

So, to the point! We all went out yesterday and the new guy had come down from the central coast for the long weekend. He introduced me and he didn’t look like what i thought he would. He was small – like 5ft 9ish?! And Steve said that he didnt really do small people so I was a bit intrigued. Anyways, apparently this guy had been trying to cause fights, flying off the handle at anyone and steve was gettin a bit annoyed – he told me that he wouldl line up for a club rather than push in – which is what I would do. Anyways, this guy was biting him and all over him and when it was just me with them, i’d feel a bit weird. So, this guy then says he wants to go to a leather club and Steve tried getting me to go with the 2 of them….. Hmmm yeah LEMON!!! Anyways he gave me a hug and kiss and said bye to his other mates and told me to call him later on!!?! Confusing so left it. Anyways I hung with his other mates for the evening which also didnt like this small guy – he was meant to be a submissive – I didnt see it!

So, after the evening was finished, I walked to the train station to catch a bus (I know that sounds strange!!) And being the drunkard, I thought I shud text Steve!!!! Anyways the message read  ‘I like you, I just don’t know how much. You seemed happy with X. Sorry for the text but I just had to let you know’. Now reading this now, it sounds stupid, I know! But at the time, it was right – so now I dunno wat to do… Leave it? Ring him? Text him? Apologise for the message? Grrrrr I’m so annoyed with myself! Anyways, he had booked me a hotel room as he works in one and I just couldn’t go back – just in case we saw each other in the morning and I just wanted my bed and be monged.
And I fell asleep on the bus and missed my stop by 15 Mins and had to get a taxi back – GRRRRRR!!!

So, please help! What do I do…. Call? Text? Meet? Play it cool? Speak with his friend? HELP!!!!