Lost

1.
It’s been cold in the house
She wants to sleep with the windows open
this has no symbolic meaning
her metabolism has changed
advances that I can’t understand
fortunately, it’s been a warm winter

but survival in my surroundings
feels a little too Soviet

I have technology that I couldn’t have imagined
ten years ago
it even helps write whole sentences
and when I want to go back
I just spin the dial on the MP3 player
my children’s pictures are on the mantel
grade school, Junior High
out of date by three years
I will wake in the morning
my daughter will have driven herself to school
my son will dream of dragon tattoos on his fair arms
my wife will be one step closer to Vice President of something
I will wake, drive, sit, think, make deadline, drive, sit
settle – the distraction is complete

in my vague plans to pare down
loss is inevitable