a bit crook

I am feeling a bit crook. I would say I am soldiering on at work but the reality is that there is very little to do and I am not that incapacitated just a bit tired and a mildly sore throat. Given there is so little for me to do though I should have stood in bed.

The Wind Cries Mary still needs finishing, running out of time before the show and I won’t be able to paint tonight. It doesn’t look terrible, just not as whole as the other canvases. I will be retiring early tonight, tomorrow is Adele’s farewell dinner so perhaps Thursday I will get to add some more paint.

Last Saturday we ended up going to Sabroso for dinner. Claudia spent most of the night giving me a pep talk about Jackson. The gist was that I should try and make amends by apologising for my behaviour when I was ill. I think it is a fine suggestion. My only grievance is that sometimes I think Claudia is talking about her mother’s illness not mine. I have long since forgiven myself. Having been ill is unfortunate but that is the way the cookie crumbles, I’m not going to cry over it now. It happened and wishing won’t make it unhappen. I am not looking for Jack to forgive me either. I wasn’t a very good father before I was ill as well so it is not like I can use illness as an excuse for all my shortcomings. Still I would like a better relationship so apologising might help and it won’t hurt.

Yesterday I saw Cowboys and Aliens. It was a hoot. It took itself quite seriously given how silly the story was but I never thought it went too far. I also got a haircut and went to the library and bought with Claudia a new dishwasher and tv. I got my tax return today so that was a bonus.