tom cruise = antiChrist?

One of my faves today mentioned that Jim Carrey was going to start beginner Scientology classes. I admit that I know very very little about the Church of Scientology, except what may have been mentioned offhand to me (we were put here by aliens?), but overall I’ve had no more qualms with it than any other organized religion *coughcultcough*… But in any case it got me thinking… Is it just me, or does Tom Cruise look like he could be the AntiChrist? Just saying… (would that make Baby Suri the spawn of Satan?)

It’s been so incredibly unseasonably warm. I don’t know what to do with myself. Right now, of course, I’m freezing though, because it’s not terribly warm in the office.

You know what i discovered works better than coffee to wake me up? Sex. It still only works for about an hour and a half, but it still beats coffee. On a semi-related note, I was told yesterday that long-term hormonal birth control can have permanent detrimental effects on the female sex drive. I’ve yet to confirm this with a verified source, but color me scared. I already was frightened about the potential future effects on fertility.

Peter Boyle, the guy that played Frank on the show, “Everybody Loves Raymond” died the other day. I heard it on the news last night, and immediately called my dad to tell him. As I had guessed, he hadn’t heard. We ended up talking about my school plans. (As some of you already know, I’ve been looking into culinary school.) I tried to explain to him better what exactly it is I’m feeling, and he said, “I hear you,” and I breathed a sigh of relief that he understood. But not 20 minutes later he went on to say, “I think you’re making a mistake.” Which really, of course, makes me wonder just how much he understands.

The way I see it, right now, my mistake was in coming to Hopkins in the first place. My mistake was loading myself up with classes I didn’t care about in high school just because they would look better on my transcripts. My mistake may even have been going straight from high school into college without a break. I can understand the sentiment of people saying, “but you’re almost done! and what about all that time and money?”… but, it’s like I told my dad… I don’t want to be an economist. I don’t want to work on Wall Street. I don’t want to be some big corporate CEO with a corner office. So anything i decide to do would require me going to a different school anyway. The only person whose time and money I’m wasting is my own, and if I continue on to get a degree that I probably won’t ever use I’ll just be wasting even more of my own time, and my own money.

When people ask me if I’m really going to leave Hopkins to go to culinary school, I say, “Well I’m still thinking about it.” Because even still now, I’m worried what other people will think. Not to as much of an extent as I was worried before (like when I decided to apply early decision to the top school in the nation for a major that I hadn’t even heard of a year before then), but it still matters to me. About a month and a half ago, when I WAS still “just thinking about it,” I mentioned offhand to an acquaintance in my economics class that it was something I was considering, and without batting an eye he said, “I think that’s the stupidest thing you could do.” It is for that reason that I haven’t really told any of my friends here at Hopkins of my plans. I think I’ll just disappear at the end of next semester and hope no one notices. But I’m not just thinking about it anymore. I’ve already applied to the Art Institute of New York. All I’m counting on now is acceptance.