self epiphany: character flaw

*stream of conciousness*

Something just occurred to me. That I know of, no guy I’ve ever dated has ever cheated on me (at least that I know of… and I think it’s fair to say that I’d know). And until the most recent one, I’ve never had my trust betrayed. And yet…

I’ve been the “other woman” in more than one relationship. When the opportunity presents itself, I rarely turn it down. I’ve even gone so far as to attempt to seduce guys that I knew were in relationships (and of course it usually works.)

A character flaw, obviously. But the epiphany is the why. Why would I purposely involve myself with guys in relationships, knowing that I would never want a guy to betray me, knowing how much it hurts to be betrayed? Here’s a theory. I don’t actually trust men at all. Subconciously I think they’re all liars and cheaters. And I’ve made it my personal mission to prove myself correct.