entry #91 (well sort of)

i can’t think of any more creative entry titles, b/c all of my entries lately have had the same basic gist to them… and “entry #91” isn’t an entirely accurate title, firstly b/c i didn’t take into account my private entries that none of y’all can see ( :-P) and also theres still quite a few entries that are lost somewhere out there in cyber space, b/c of the hacker, and they haven’t been replaced yet…its starting to get really frustrating…

in other news… me and ryan… well, i guess we’re back together for good… but as i’ve mentioned before, its really weird… both of us seem to be pretending that nothing ever happened between us… i’m not sure whether this is a good or a bad thing… i mean, obviously, right now it appears to be good, b/c we’re together, and i love him, and he loves me, and everythings all peachy. but i’m thinking that perhaps this is indicative of a lack of communication between us… but then again, from reading carlini’s and dale’s diaries, i’m guessing that a lack of communication is something that all couples experience… perhaps i shouldnt be worried *sigh*

anyway, something else strange happened while i was at home… i was glad to be home, and i miss it whenever i’m here, but at the same time, when i was home, i kind of missed here… i missed being able to go out into the lounge at 1 am and find people to watch movies with… or watch the drunk people start to get back from the bars, clubs, and parties… i missed eating meals at strange times of night (“lunch” at 10 pm? “dinner” at 2:30 am?) … i missed some of the people that i’ve made friends with here… i was online the one night, and one of them IM’ed me and asked what i was doin that night and i was like “im home, so prolly sleeping” and he was like “oh, thats right, i forgot u went home” and i found myself bein kinda sad that i couldn’t go party or watch a movie or just chill :-(…. hmm anyways

peace,
~jen