conflict of interest?

he makes me feel

safe – cute – loved – warm – beautiful – powerful – smart – sexy – cared for – like i’ll never be alone again – like nothing in the world can touch me

dammit. so does he
it was only supposed to be casual. i should know by now. i can’t do anything half-assed. it’s all or nothing. apparently i apply the same rules to dating. *le sigh* and now i’m torn between two amazing guys, so alike its scary and yet so different. and its not fair to tell him that i’ll be done with him once the other comes home. and what if the other doesnt come home? what if he’s sent away? i can’t wait that long–this is already torturous. i shouldn’t have to wait–he wouldn’t want me to wait.

my thoughts right now are not completely coherent…