and bad things…
now for the bad stuff :-/
Alex, as usual, has been thinking… and of course, that almost always starts me thinking… I can’t think of what to say about it, so i’ll just let you read the conversation between me and him… *sigh*
rahrah 24seven (8:58:28 PM): 5:35 remind me never to think about the future…
5:43 remind me not to be gifted…
rahrah 24seven (8:58:29 PM): ?
DaFishey (8:58:41 PM): what?
rahrah 24seven (8:58:45 PM): your info?
DaFishey (8:58:48 PM): oh
DaFishey (8:58:49 PM): yea
DaFishey (8:58:56 PM): just notes to myself
rahrah 24seven (8:59:12 PM): ok….
DaFishey (8:59:39 PM): have you heard the song 100 years by five for fighting
rahrah 24seven (8:59:50 PM): i think so…
rahrah 24seven (8:59:55 PM): pretty sure, yes
DaFishey (9:00:01 PM): that song scares me somewhat,
rahrah 24seven (9:00:07 PM): :-
DaFishey (9:00:10 PM): cause its so perfectly sung and written
DaFishey (9:00:14 PM): so thats the future one
DaFishey (9:00:30 PM): the gifted one is basically assuming too much from stuff
DaFishey (9:00:38 PM): and i dont know whether thats gifted or just me
DaFishey (9:00:41 PM): either way
rahrah 24seven (9:00:44 PM): ah… mmk
DaFishey (9:01:02 PM): yea, 100 years is such a beautiful song
DaFishey (9:01:14 PM): but i cant listen to it without the future
DaFishey (9:01:22 PM): coming to mind and scaring me
DaFishey (9:01:27 PM): i hate the idea of growing up
rahrah 24seven (9:01:34 PM): :- don’t we all
DaFishey (9:01:35 PM): not so much the self sufficiency
DaFishey (9:01:40 PM): im fine with that
DaFishey (9:01:50 PM): more the idle time that i sense just wont be around
DaFishey (9:02:06 PM): although, if some of these essays ive been reading come true, and several of them could
DaFishey (9:02:13 PM): it might not be as bad
DaFishey (9:02:19 PM): more time, more ways to enjoy myself
DaFishey (9:02:43 PM): also the idea of spending my life with someone is what gets me through thinking about the future
rahrah 24seven (9:02:53 PM): yea…
DaFishey (9:03:01 PM): and thats where giftedness comes in, cause i cant go too far in that direction
DaFishey (9:03:08 PM): in my current position that is
rahrah 24seven (9:03:19 PM): hum
DaFishey (9:03:46 PM): do you understand what im saying?
rahrah 24seven (9:04:01 PM): yes
rahrah 24seven (9:04:04 PM): perfectly
rahrah 24seven (9:04:12 PM): and now its got me thinking a bit…
rahrah 24seven (9:04:14 PM): :-
DaFishey (9:04:17 PM): ah
rahrah 24seven (9:04:38 PM): thinking is dangerous, i ought to quit doing it
DaFishey (9:04:41 PM): its prolly not as bad for you… you dont have quite the focus on one person i think
DaFishey (9:04:56 PM): eh, i just need to stay away from certain topics
rahrah 24seven (9:05:05 PM): true
DaFishey (9:05:53 PM): I’m 33 for a moment
Still the man, but you see I’m a they
A kid on the way
A family on my mind
I’m 45 for a moment
The sea is high
And I’m heading into a crisis
Chasing the years of my life
DaFishey (9:06:09 PM): Half time goes by
Suddenly you’re wise
Another blink of an eye
67 is gone
The sun is getting high
We’re moving on…
DaFishey (9:06:44 PM): i think i have problems with all this cause it says that we’re going to miss the moments we’ve wasted
DaFishey (9:06:56 PM): and that makes me feel like ive failed
DaFishey (9:07:02 PM): cause computer games accomplish nothing
rahrah 24seven (9:08:44 PM): hmm… neither do online rpg’s:-
DaFishey (9:08:54 PM): yea
DaFishey (9:09:03 PM): thats what bothers me
DaFishey (9:09:14 PM): i take comfort in the fact that theres very little i could do
DaFishey (9:09:22 PM): except that i know there are
DaFishey (9:09:33 PM): theres books to read, that give knowledge
DaFishey (9:09:50 PM): theres letters to write, that give friends
DaFishey (9:09:54 PM): theres so much to do
DaFishey (9:09:56 PM): …
rahrah 24seven (9:10:01 PM): 🙁
DaFishey (9:10:01 PM): im going to stop now
rahrah 24seven (9:10:08 PM): this is highly depressing
DaFishey (9:10:12 PM): yes
DaFishey (9:10:13 PM): it is
DaFishey (9:10:18 PM): which is why the info
DaFishey (9:10:21 PM): that answer your question?
rahrah 24seven (9:10:32 PM): yea…
rahrah 24seven (9:10:44 PM): only now i’m half-wishing i hadn’t asked
DaFishey (9:10:58 PM): yea
DaFishey (9:11:11 PM): oh well, we’re going to have to confront it sometime
rahrah 24seven (9:11:17 PM): true
DaFishey (9:11:29 PM): you realize you’re not going to get married till you’re like 30?
DaFishey (9:11:34 PM): if you want to finish school
rahrah 24seven (9:11:37 PM): i know :-
DaFishey (9:11:54 PM): see, i want a grad degree, but i could stand being married while getting it
DaFishey (9:12:04 PM): at least for part of the time
rahrah 24seven (9:12:15 PM): i think if i just wait til after my bachelor’s i’ll be fine
rahrah 24seven (9:12:36 PM): b/c i want at least 3 kids… and if i don’t start til i’m 30, then there’s no way that’s gonna happen
DaFishey (9:12:56 PM): yea
DaFishey (9:13:16 PM): i think if i get married halfway through grad school
DaFishey (9:13:22 PM): that would be just about perfect
rahrah 24seven (9:13:27 PM): yea..
DaFishey (9:13:28 PM): 2 years to court her and just date
DaFishey (9:13:32 PM): 2 years to be married
DaFishey (9:13:43 PM): a few years to amass money, and just spend time with us
DaFishey (9:13:53 PM): then 2 kids i think
rahrah 24seven (9:14:02 PM): lol
DaFishey (9:14:04 PM): of close ages
DaFishey (9:14:15 PM): it would get very annoying to the older otherwise
rahrah 24seven (9:14:47 PM): lol
DaFishey (9:15:11 PM): shower
rahrah 24seven (9:15:15 PM): k
rahrah 24seven (9:15:17 PM): ttyl
DaFishey (9:15:21 PM): to come up with more depressing thoughts…
DaFishey is away at 9:15:54 PM.
DaFishey returned at 9:31:47 PM.
DaFishey (9:32:06 PM): time for more depressing thoughts