Bossman *E*

*Hub says I am to stay the hell away from Bossman and what part of he does not want me to work do I not understand. He says I have enough stuff to do just managing the crap we do have. ……. I think I get it. Out with the ugly, inwith the good energy! He also knows I am wigging out over the real estate stuff and reminded me to knock that crap off too. He does not understand why I want to test so high in something I won’t be doing. I think that is a very good question.*

Just got off the phone with him, I wanted to know where my reference letter is, he said he will write it up in the next few days. He said "I thought you retired" I said "no, you do not listen to me and it was you that kept using the R word". He claims I missed a class that I agreed to teach and I told him his office failed to notify me of the class. I also explained to him about the SSD part and the help I need from him, he said no problem.

Fuck, talking to that man makes me want to puke. We hung up and then I sat and got pissed and emailed him and told him I will not be teaching for him anymore and that if I go back to work in the same field what does he want me to say about why I left him (just thinking of his ego) and that I will gladly resign from his board if he has a problem with me working else where. I don’t want to be on his board anyway and am just hoping this is an out.

Had a conversation yesterday with the Shrink man and it was interesting, he was thinking of all kinds of things for me to do and reminded me that I could still own a business if on SSD I just couldn’t work it, which he says could fit in nicely. I think he could provide me all the work I can handle.

I have so much bad energy going through me right now…..grrrrrrrr.

 I got to let it go and just get one but with what? I will figure that out because one thing I do know about myself is I just do not stay status quo.