the worst of it

I really hope I have seen the worst of my troubles at work. the gal I work with pretty closely has been setting me up for trouble. She can’t help herself. It is miserable for her, and it is uncomfortable for me as well. I am disappointed cuz I thought we had a good thing going there for a while, but I am not mad, I am not offended. If it didn’t affect the result of all our work, it would be laughable. But ppl are getting hurt. Not me, but other ppl. I am not hurt. I think I have been made a fool of now several times, and I really thought I did my best to avoid that.

Me and my big mouth. I say too much. I should never confide in her or complain to her. It gets directly to the person in no time. You would think I would get a clue. Oh well.

There is someone I owe an apology to at some point, but hub says not right now. The guy I need to apologize to is really angry with me, and he has reason to be. I have been really hard on him, and now I see it. I was set up to be by this gal in my office. Then she turns on me and tells him all sorts of stuff. Oh well. I hope I can remember to not trust her. I knew before, but I thought it was OK to let my guard down as we were working together so well.

And I am not a trusting person. I am not a forceful person, usually. Sometimes I push my way through an issue, and that is what happened last week, so I am sure she is digging her feet in cuz she doesn’t want to change the way she does things, but improvements are desperately needed.

I was put in a position of authority over this person when they reorganized the structure of our company, and that HAS to be rubbing her the wrong way.

Pray for me. Tomorrow is Monday and I really don’t want a repeat of last week. It was miserable.

faith hope and love, but the greatest of these is love.