1/12/06

I look at your empty room with mixed emotions. I am sad you are not here to keep me company. I am so very happy that you are confident and competent, and have a life of your own. I prayed you would be successful, in yourself, whatever that would mean to you.

You were sad and said you were not ready to go back. I assured you it would be OK. We prayed. I wished you could stay longer and we could walk, talk and pray together for a few more days. We prayed you would feel ready to go when the time came to go. You did. You went off with a smile and a hug. Our home is quieter now. Next year it will be even more so as your brother joins you in his adventure away from home.

I wrote this the other day intending to post it. Work has been busy. I had a difficult week. But the latter half has been better. Monday and Tuesday were pretty bad. I was on the verge of tears all day. The same things are not resolved at work, but I am not as distressed over them.

Dau is going to fly to see bf’s dad next week. She wasn’t sure she wanted to do this, but she prayed about it and decided it was good. I was hoping she would do that. She asked me what I thought before she went back, if she should go or not. She is going cuz bf has something going on and he wanted her there. Plus she meets his dad. It cost them a bit to fly, and she has to miss a few days of class. I told her I had no feelings one way or the other. Then I corrected myself. I said I do have feelings one way, but I prefer not to tell you what they are. It is just my feelings and I don’t want that to influence your decision. So when she told me, I asked her if she wanted to know now what my feelings were now that she has already decided. I told her and she was very pleased to know that. She thought my feelings would be to not go. So anyway, it made her feel even better about the decision she made.

well my mouse is acting up. I better post before I lose this entry!

faith hope and love, but the greatest of these is love.