Sleepless Saturday Night

I let the boys go to a graduation party last night, and they didn’t answer their cell phones when I called and texted to check on them.  I dozed off around 1:30am and woke up at a few minutes before 3am, and neither of them answered….so I got in the car and headed towards the party texting to tell them I was on the way.  Of course, THEN I got a reply that they were on their way home.  I was a little upset over the lateness and the fact that they didn’t answer their phones until they knew I was coming there, but they were both clear eyed and sober.  The party was chaperoned, they spent the evening playing video games and watching movies.  We’ll talk about curfews and answering their phones today if they want summer freedom. It’s Brads’ graduation week, so I’m inclined to be a little lenient this time because he’s been working so hard.  However, once they were home safe and sleeping soundly, I found that I was unable to go to sleep, so I’ve been watching movies on Netflix, reading and generally being exasperated with myself for not being able to drift back off.  And now it’s time for my day to begin, lol.
I alluded to some bad news last week also.  One of my oldest and dearest friends called last Tuesday and asked me if I would act as his pallbearer when he dies.  It threw me a little off kilter when he asked.  I’ve acted as a pallbearer many times, but never by the person we were to carry.  Then Greg told me that his doctor told him the week previous that he should start settling his affairs.  Greg has had problems with diabetes for a number of years, and it has resulted in some major heart problems.  His heart is giving out, and the doctor told him not to expect more than a few more months.  He isn’t a transplant consideration because of the diabetes apparently.
This was upsetting to me, Greg and I have been friends since we were fifteen years old.  That’s a lot of time under our belts, and I don’t like to think of him dying.  But dying is never a pleasant issue, it comes to us all at some point.
The next day Judy called to tell me her father has lung cancer and that due to his age, he isn’t going to do anything about it other than seek help for pain control.   He is 82 and wants to let nature take it’s course rather than seek treatment that will take away from the quality of life he has left with his family.  I understand his decision, the prognosis isn’t good for him, but again, he’s been part of my life for many years now, and I hate the thought of losing him.
I felt a bit guilty that in the midst of all the pain of people I love and care about, we were celebrating our happiness at Brad and his sister graduating next Thursday.  I wasn’t about to take away from his accomplishment though, he and Jessica both deserve this week for twelve years of work finally paying off.
I’m lying in bed for the moment, listening to the rainfall that started a few minutes ago.  I need to get up and start my coffee and get my day started soon.  Laundry to be done before church, breakfast to cook, and I want to make a lunch for Brad to take to work this morning.  Tomorrow I’m scheduled to work at the fire department, so today and tomorrow are pretty booked up with things to accomplish.  Tuesday is my planned day of rest.  We’ll see how that goes when the time comes, lol.  You know what they say about the best laid plans of mice and men.
I hope everyone out there has a great day today, whenever the day rolls around to your part of the globe.  Later.

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June 2, 2013
June 2, 2013

Don’t feel guilty, you and your family deserve this celebration, Hugs

June 2, 2013

Gosh, the prospect of being pallbearer to your good friend is a tough one. Hard for him to ask too. And sad for you both.

June 3, 2013

So sorry to hear about your friend’s condition… 🙁