Day one:

This is day one of public journaling. Life has been……chaotic to say the least. Hoping to make some new friends on here. It is now 1:15 on the east coast, Pennsylvania to be exact. I have been getting less and less sleep as of late. Marriage related stress to be exact but furthermore we will go into that in other sessions more detailed. Every night I go to bed around 11ish. I wake up at 2:30 every morning, the Bluetooth speaker out in my kitchen somehow turns it’s self on (and at full blast no less) by 3Am thankfully I’m awake to turn it off before the kids get woken up. As a pagan in spirituality I know that this pattern is because I am supposed to be receiving a message and either I haven’t gotten it or I haven’t been listening properly. Tonight is a little different I have no reason to be up, just haven’t gone to sleep. I find myself frequenting Facebook, browsing fanfix to torture myself with what all the sexy rich people do all day, that I’ll never be able to do, I ask quora 15 dumb questions, and browse the gaming forum on Reddit to see new updates, game releases etc. Tomorrow is just another normal Tuesday another day of trying to avoid pointless arguing with the wife and take care of 4 children. If your interested in following along leave a note in the comments. My name is Jonathan but my friends call me blaze. Hope to follow along with some of you guys or most of you.