08/21/2013

I mentioned before you can either stay in bed, talk to a friend, or try to blend in with the world to deal with feelings of sadness.  Today, I had a chance and resolved to get out of the apartment.  Jogged around in a neighborhood I had never been around before.  Really nice houses, and a bizarre street layout made it kind of an explorative adventure.  I’m certainly in no need to burn a ton of calories, but I like how jogging makes me feel.  It makes me feel accomplished, knowing I’m doing something good for my health.  I like being outside, when it isn’t incredibly hot. Looking forward to fall, when I can sit out on the porch with my crossword puzzle and relax.

Afterwards, I drove over to Half Price Books.  If you’ve never heard of this place (there aren’t a whole bunch outside of Texas), it’s a giant used bookstore where you can just about find anything about anything.  I haven’t been a voracious reader for many years; I would visit here to find used cd’s and dvd’s, especially as my tastes exploded in music after I moved out from my mom’s house.  Music was never my family’s thing. Now, listening to music the first couple hours of my shift at work is the only thing that has kept me from going crazy over there.  But recently, I’ve begun to take up reading again.  A little weird, but I much prefer nonfiction.  I read mostly history.  The one I’m reading right now is about a bunch of historical what-ifs and how easily things could have changed.  Fiction never interested me much.  Not sure why.  I’m usually really picky about books, so if I find even one I have a really good feeling about, then I buy it.  This time, I found several, more than I ever remember finding before.  Then there was this.

Not purchased, and yes my headphones got in the way, but I did a double take when I saw it.  I’ve had one experience with goats in my life. They chased my ex around, and I mostly stood filming it and laughing,  I still can’t find that camera or that footage sadly. 

Afterwards, I had no real plan on where to go.  I just decided to wing it, and my gut said Whole Foods (an organic-centric grocery store), but I debated too long and passed it.  Decided instead to go to Fiesta, a hispanic grocery store.  Oh wow, I’ve been there before, but they revamped the place!  All these items I’ve never heard of or seen before, especially of the Peruvian persuasion.  When I get more money, I’ll definitely investigate.  

Bought this though.

Banana cola!  Didn’t taste much banana though.

Spent the evening with my friend eating wings and watching television.  Something I need to do more often.  I’m a lot like my cat, Rocco.  I’ll go hours without seeing or hearing a peep from him, then all of a sudden, he’ll curl up on my lap and follow me around purring loudly whenever I pet him.  Then after a little bit, he’ll disappear again.  I can’t decide if he’s more independent or starving for attention and affection.  And I can’t decide that about myself.  I can go long stretches without touching base with my friends, acting like everything’s just fine, then for stretches, I’ll be incredibly needy and mope around if no one is free and wanting everyone’s attention and affection.  I don’t know if Rocco got that from me, or maybe I got that from him……

I’m going to start writing again.  I have an idea, just need some time to figure out the details.