No heating…

So yeah… the boiler in my apartment is broken… one of the worst times this could happen at cos it’s veeery cold out. So I wrote my property agent an email and told him to ring me and send someone asap… he didn’t rind me yet… not impressed…

The water was also gone yesterday. The reservoir was nearly empty they were saying and they throttled the water supply… which pretty much left me without running water bar the warm water that was still in the tank…. stupid… thankfully today I had water again and just had a nice warm shower… and am now freezing my ass off without heating.

I mean thaaaankfully i have the electric fire place here but that will cost me a fortune and sure it only heats the living room so imagine my bedroom as a total fridge… it’s crazy….

Well… I will ring the property agent dude tomorrow and ask him if he’s fucking joking me to not get back to me… unless he didn’t read the email yet…. dunno. I knoooowww I should have rung him in the first place but i get shy…

Things with Ferdi are great. We’re getting to know each other more and more. We’re seem to be very similar on an emotional level. Similar experiences and stuff. Just he acts very different cos of them as I do…

I have realised something about myself…. finally I guess…

I AM the one who is leaving… not they… my therapist was onto somehing after all I think… I think I have commitment phobia!!! This realisation has really shocked me to the bone because I really never thought I do…. but now it’s out… and now I can start dealing with it.

Ferdinand is just so incredibly sweet to me that I just don’t know how to handle it. No man has ever been this sweet to me I think. Like on Saturday we went to the cinema to see Avatar and later on we went to my place and watched another couple of DVDs on the laptop (i still haven’t found a TV I really like…. i am so picky…) and this is were we really kissed for the first time. I mean we kissed before but … not really you know… we made out for the first time. I even asked him to stay then and we went to bed but HE stopped and he said he is tired (it was like 5 in the morning) and he doesn’t want to go further because he doesn’t want to ruin anything we have.

I know… you might think it’s a "Wussy" statement to make but if you think about it it’s really sweet…. and it keeps the mystery alive a bit longer… I cannot remember the last time I waited this long with a guy… LOL… right now I have my "girly days" so that means no joy over the next few days either… like a viiiirgin *sing*

Anyway he is the sweetest thing really. Like for example yesterday when i came home (my friend Alex from work was with me) and realised that neither the heating nor the water are working I texted him to tell him that and he rang me immediately to tell me he’s gonna get me some bottled water. I was like "No you really don’t need to do that sweety." and he insisted… so he rang me from the shop later to tell me that still water is out and he’s gonna get me sparkling instead… awh… i mean come on… how sweet is that ey???

For some reason that little act of kindness really got to me…. I fancy him more than ever lol…. let’s hope it will stay this way….

love ya!