In limbo….

I didn’t have a very good week….. it’s all a very long and complicated story… and I don’t want to talk about it all now to be honest. Two major things though that made it bad: 1st… Massi and I are sort of… I don’t know… on a break?! Is that the word? We are sort of broken up I guess…. but we’ll meet MOnday, see how that goes (as friends like I guess…) and then see if we want to continue seeing each other (this reminds me sooo much of one of my faves and his girl… yes Noah you lol). Me for my part I still really really care about him…. but I think he’s a bit confused at the moment… it’s really a typical scenario like i’ve experienced so many times before… well… I am trying to be calm (of course I cried hysterically already…) now and see him on monday and take it from there….

2nd thing… my boiler in my apartment is still broken. Did I mention this already? And it’s not getting fixed until MAYBE Wednesday… which means I am either without heating all together or with a bloody expensive portable electrical heater…. sucks ass….

So all that has me pretty stressed and upset…. my tummy isn’t in great shape at the moment… whenever I am anxious, upset, excited, nervous or anything like that my tummy is affected…

so… this week was crappy…. i wish i could just sleep and relax at the weekend but I can’t. I have my course and on Saturday evening I am going to the opera. La Traviata…. I am really looking forward to it but I think I will cry like a crazy person… a) i was meant to spend the weekend in Massis house which is now, of course, not happening. and b) cos it’s apparently a bloody sad opera and i will cry my eyes out thinking about Massi and it just being so damn sad….. i SO wish i could just sleep…. 🙁

Sorry I know this is a bit of a whiney entry…. things will look up again soon and I’ll be all happy again. Life is a Rollercoaster…