Life, so confusing at times

Its so weird.  I am looking forward to going back to campus full time and getting away from here.  I am so hating it here, and am so happy when I am at school, and such.

I got asked about my last entry.  About what I was meaning when I was tlaking about God.  The decision is if I should devote my life to the minestry and become ordained.  Its not something I really had considered but in the week since it happened, its been there in the back of my mind slowly eating away at me and I am really wondering if that is what my calling is.  I know there is only one way that answer can come and thats from God.  And i have not been given the guidence yet.  Although I do pray on it.

This afternoon a really close friend of mine told me she is pregnant.  Now that sucks because she knows that I have wanted to date her for a long time.  And she has given me indications that the feelings may of been mutual.  Now it just stings.  I want to cry but I know its not right.  She made her choices and I can only hope that God will help her make the right choices from here on out.  Of course if God didn’t want her to be pregnant then she wouldn’t be.  But thats all to be seen as to what the plans are for her.

I am exausted and not wanting to go to work.  But thats life I guess.  One of my coworkers got fired on Friday and I had to cover my open shift and his close shift yesterday.  I am so beat and all I want to do is sleep.