Update

So my job is going well. I have been working hard thats for sure.

Nothin much has been goin on i guess. Im a lil bored at the moment I have nothing to do and i so badly want to go to the park but Mayson is sleeping so i think im going to have to wait.

Speaking of the park I was off the other day and it was beautiful out and i picked up jayden from school and i went and cleaned out my car. And i come home and I asked bryan if he wanted to go to the park with us. ANd he was like NO I DONT WANT TO GO. Which i was just like fine. But i was thinking how we got into a fight over the winter and he was telling me how when it get nice out we were going to go to the park all the time and we were going to walk and let the kids play and blah blah blah. I guess i expected it to actually be pulled off but then again im dealing with bryan.

So I left for a mintue and ran an errand and i called and asked him a question on my way back and he was like okay ill go with you. So i get home and I got the boys ready to go and he continued to lay on the couch.! So i guess he wasnt going.
I called him to bring me out the car seat and 5min later he comes out and is all dressed and was like lets go.

You would think that i was excited that he was going to go with me but i really wasnt. It made me feel like he had to do a chore like he was obligated to go and he didnt really want to go. I didnt  know i was asking for a lot when i asked him to spend time with us. But then again that seems to be our whole relationship. Obligation

I think im more tired of talking/complaining about the same thing over and over and still gettting no Results. We dont really have a relationship anymore Its more like roomates with benefits! And it makes me sad