because I was scared…
Because I was scared..
I didn’t say a word because I was scared.
I rather, hold a blade to my wrist and watch the blood seep down my hand than to admit the truth.
I didn’t say a word because I was scared.
I rather let the nightmares haunt me and the thoughts invade my soul, than to see my grandmother’s tears stream down her face
I didn’t say a word because I was scared.
I rather live a lie, than to live my truth.
I rather push the thought of you so far back into my mind, that even I question what’s real.
I didn’t say a word because I was scared.
I rather suffer in silence than to make those around me doubt or question me.
I didn’t say anything because I was scared.
I didn’t say anything because some way some how in this fucked up, demented, one sided family, I would be wrong. It would be my fault. I don’t understand what I’m saying, I’m a liar. It never happened. I want attention. I’m confused. I didn’t say anything because I was….
They recognize, select, groom and mistreat children they suspect will keep secrets, because they’re too sensitive to see their family hurt.
No child is prepared to do battle with that level of scheming and manipulation.
I wish I could give younger you a flaming sword and furious anger. I wish I could give it to us both.
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Fear is nothing, it’s okay to be afraid, it’s okay to suffer fear to be defeated by fear. -hugs-
The worst thing that can be done to you is to have your uncertainty of reality taken away by those around you. I have met no one that could experience that and not be afraid.
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I lived this. The only ones left now are my sister and me. She refuses to accept the facts. I feel the pain here because I carry it too. Just understand better people will come into your life. Family (in my opinion) can be chosen and the chosen ones are best. I hear you. I stand beside you. You are not alone.
@snarkle thanks
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