New Job

I start my new job this morning. This is the first time I’ve been up (and stayed awake) at 6AM in quite a while. I am NOT a morning person. Staying up til 3AM is cool. Getting up at 9AM afterwards, I can handle… going to bed at 10PM and waking up at 6AM….  not so much for me. But flexible hours don’t really come with accounting (unless you’re really lucky or scamming someone).

In any case, I start today. I’m basically supposed to walk into this construction company and take over all the accounting aspects, all the general office duties, and, within a year, be totally ready to help with project management and whatnot.  I’m terrified. Totally nuts kind of terrified. I was confident when I interviewed, but now I’m completely convinced I’m going to somehow manage to ruin this man’s entire business on accident. How exactly am I supposed to go to work with THAT in my head. I just am not sure that I can walk in there, fix all the mistakes the last bookkeeper made, make improvements that help the business to run more efficiently, and ultimately take over the entire office. I think I may have bitten off more than I can chew… I can get myself around in a pool, but I feel like I’ve just jumped into the Bering Sea during crab season (can you tell I love Deadliest Catch?).

In any case, I have my little lunch packed. I got all the laundry done this weekend… and the house is pretty clean. Leaving a clean house behind always helps center my mood. I’m just going to try to remind myself that I didn’t think I could graduate, and I did. I didn’t think I could handle another move, and I did. I certainly thought the projects for my management class were going to kill me, but they didn’t. I sometimes doubt myself, but I always seem — with wisdom from my mother, love from my husband, and the grace of my guardian angel watching over me — to rise above and conquer. Let us hope that the trend continues.

I’ll try and update later to let you know about my day.