More lists… keepin’ on, keepin’ on…

So, today I

~~v Go to the gym~~
~~v Call about getting my hair done~~
v ~~If I’m lucky, GET MY HAIR DONE~~ (appt for 1pm Wednesday)
~~v Clean off my desk~~
v File all the crap
~~v End of year finances~~
v ~~Schedule car repair~~(appt for 11am Thursday)

Tomorrow I will:
* Go to gym
* Get hair done
* Buy clothes
* Mail Xmas Cards
*Start scanning pictures

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To be honest, I’m really numb right now. I am shutting down emotionally because the waiting is just too hard. But if there’s one thing that 11 months of missing my husband has taught me, it’s that numb is a hell of a lot better than lonely, so I’ll take it!
I am keeping busy and not thinking about it… so, that said… I"m gonna go find something else to do.

for what it’s worth and I hope you don’t hate me: D and I are emailing. I *did* sent the goodbye one and then we both realized we had talked each other into a frenzy without really feeling it. We are 95% (can’t lie) platonic with a touch of flirting. That’s it. And I have no intention of leaving my husband or cheating on him physically. I know you don’t understand or approve, but honesty.. especially with you.. is so very important to me.