I’ve come to realize…

1. I’ve come to realize that my boobs….
WILL NOT SHRINK WITH WEIGHT LOSS…. DAMNIT.

2. I’ve come to realize that when I talk…
I KNOW WHAT AM TALKING ABOUT…. AND THAT IF I DON’T KNOW SOMETHING, I SAY SO…

3. I’ve come to realize when I love someone…
I OPEN MYSELF UP TO BE HURT BY THEM IN WAYS I CAN’T IMAGINE… AND EVEN WHEN I THINK THERE ISN’T ANY MORE DAMAGE TO BE DONE… WHEN I LOVE SOMEONE, THERE ALWAYS IS…

4. I’ve come to realize that I need…
BROADER HORIZONS. I’VE LIVED TO LONG IN A BOX OF MY OWN DESIGN. IT’S TIME TO STRIKE OUT, TO GET FLEXY, TO SURROUND MYSELF WITH NEW PEOPLE AND PLACES, TO EMERCE MYSELF IN THE UNCOMFORTABLE. I NEED TO GROW BEYOND MY OWN BOX.

5. I’ve come to realize that I have lost…
MY FAITH THAT LOVE WILL CONQUER ALL. LOVE CANNOT CONQUER A SOCIOPATH, LOVE HAS NOT CONQUERED MY FATHER’S STUBBORN MIND, AND LOVE WILL NOT CONQUER THE EVER GROWING SPACE BETWEEN SISTERS…

6. I’ve come to realize that I hate it when…
THERE IS NOTHING LEFT TO DO BUT CRY. THERE IS NO REVENGE. THERE IS NO NASTY EMAIL OR PHONE CALL. THERE IS NO PUNISHING THE BITCH/ASSHOLE WHO HURT YOU, INTENTIONALLY. THERE IS SIMPLY MOVING FORWARD. AND IF FRUCKING SUCKS.

7. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk…
I AM THE PERSON I WANT TO BE… HAPPY, FUNNY, AND FUN TO BE AROUND, BUT MOSTLY, I AM NOT STRAPPED DOWN BY FEAR AND ANXIETY.

8. I’ve come to realize that money…
CAN BE GAINED AT GREAT EXPENSE, SPENT QUICKLY, AND LOST WITH EASE… AND IT’S NEVER THE MOST IMPORTANT THING…

9. I’ve come to realize that people…
HAVE THEIR OWN STORIES… THAT GIRL AT THE WINDOW WHO JUST COULDN’T GET YOUR ORDER RIGHT COULD HAVE JUST DISCOVERED THAT SHE’S PREGNANT BY A MAN WHO JUST LEFT HER… OR WORSE… YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT A STRANGER’S STORY IS… BUT EVERYONE HAS ONE.

10. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always be…
THE SPARKLE IN MY MOTHER’S EYE, THE BIGGEST DISAPPOINTMENT TO MY FATHER, THE BLACK SHEEP TO MY SISTER, AND THE CHANGING POINT IN GRANT’S LIFE.

11. I’ve come to realize that I have a crush on…
MY HUSBAND, ESPECIALLY WHEN I DRINK.

12. I’ve come to realize that life…
ISN’T A RACE… AND THE PEOPLE IN IT ARE NOT OPPONENTS.

13. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone is…
NOT AS NECESSARY AS A $700 PDA SHOULD BE.

14. I’ve come to realize that when I wake up in the morning…
I QUITE ENJOY THE SOUNDS OF A HUSBAND LEAVE FOR WORK… AS OPPOSED TO THE SOUNDS OF AN EMPTY APARTMENT.

15. I’ve come to realize that before I go to sleep at night…
i THANK GOD THAT I CAN REST MY ARM ACROSS MY HUSBAND’S SIDE, RUN MY FINGERS ALONG HIS BACK,… I THANK GOD THAT HE CAME HOME TO ME WITHOUT A COFFIN.

16. I’ve come to realize that right now I am thinking about…
HOW GLAD I AM THAT IT’S FRIDAY AND THAT I GET TO SPEND THE WEEKEND OVERCOMING THE ANGER OF BETRAYL WITH THE LOVE OF A HUSBAND

17. I’ve come to realize that babies…
AREN’T FOR EVERYONE, AND AS MUCH AS I WANT ONE… THEY PROBABLY AREN’T FOR ME.

18. I’ve come to realize that when I get on Myspace…
I’M JUST PASSING THROUGH.

19. I’ve come to realize that today I will…
CONTINUE TO PUSH THE ENVELOPE, EVEN IF ITS JUST A LITTLE…

20. I’ve come to realize that tonight I will…
TELL MY HUSBAND HOW MUCH I LOVE HIM, AND THANK GOD AGAIN AS I SHOVE HIM FOR SNORING.

21. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow I will…
ENJOY THE DAY, ENJOY THE MOMENTS, ENJOY THE EXPERIENCE OF NEW ADVENTURES… AND I’LL LIKELY TAKE LOTS OF PICTURES.

22. I’ve come to realize that I really want to…
DISCOVER EVERYTHING I’VE SPENT SO MUCH TIME MISSING.