Quiet Assurance

We’re watching different skies but I suppose that doesn’t mean too much, hoping for others, little bits of superstition, but I’m not holding the same things anymore, no one I know is, small lives leading about small passages and spaces, days inside and days with the same people, it’s funny that we esteem the idea of an old friend but if we were that insular in other aspects we’d be called ignorant, criticised for being close-minded, people are pretty hard on each other, children especially, I think for most people that’s a big part of the process of aging and their relationship to their parents, we don’t really think of them being faceted and flawed as kids, we don’t understand why they’ve failed us in some areas, but as we age we see how difficult it is for most people just to get through the day, I was raised as an equal in my house, I had to come to terms with responsibility and self-determination at a relatively young age, it has benefits and it has negatives, it did make me realise that everyone is highly medicated, drugs and alcohol becomes the basis for outing and not simply a side note in the evening, people shouting about how it’s fun, I used to judge people poorly for it if I’m being honest, I thought that being reliant on a drug to have a good time meant they were a pathetic person, my opinion isn’t really so different now all I’ve dropped is the pathetic part, I just understand better now how fucking hard it is for most people, I don’t know, I think pity is tantamount to condescension anyway so what’s the difference in the end? Nothing really, nothing outside of what a pedant would find meaningful.

I never know what to say to people who look down on drug users but go drinking, as though it were somehow superior, it’s like those people you meet who drink water and eat salad but still smoke, people who vehemently argue that they can’t stand people who aren’t open minded, people who hate bigots.

A friend sent me this, the combination of melodies really does something to me http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xuf3h-du6W8

No one loves the Smashing Pumpkins anymore, they haven’t become indie cool like Nirvana whom all the little trendy kids don’t seem to forget that they were the biggest band in the world at their height, but if you ever did listen to The Smashing Pumpkins and enjoyed them then this will probably do something to you, who cares if Corgan is a controlling narcissist who is sold on his own hyperbole and can’t go a sentence without painfully contriving a supposed poetic idea, he’s gifted with an ear for melody, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6qJf9ilI0Y