8/27/03

*bangs head on desk*

I REALLY wish IT would get the server fixed downstairs. I checked with my boss for something to do and she recommended our company’s EMind courses. I’ve ranted about these in the past. There is ONE way to complete each task in these even though, for instance, in Microsoft word there may be two, or even three ways to complete each task. You have to do it the one way the test wants you to do it, otherwise you fail. It’s really hard for someone like me who’s already proficient with MS Word, Excel, Powerpoint, Access and the other things these courses are on to go through something this in-fucking-flexible. The way the course generally wants you to do it is the most backward, slowest, possible way too. There’s no going back either. If you make a mistake and click just off a menu or something then it marks you wrong and says “NO! You should have clicked the edit menu!” Well if you were at all flexible you’d see that I clicked a tiny little micrometer away from it, OOPS!!! Ugh, I’d rather suffer through a 15 week course at a college. Thus far, I have been unable to complete any emind courses because they make me want to scream. My boss is hung up on cheesy little online courses to keep you sharp. *bangs head on desk*

I need out of this joint. I am not the happy little insurance company employee that everyone else around me is. I just can’t tolerate rediculous corporate bullshit, I can’t. OOh, lets take a happy little online course, we’ve got half an hour before the happy little birthday celebration for everyone on our floor, yippee yippee lets go to the company picnic, boy I can’t wait to suck ass at the company holiday party. I am not, and will never be, that person. My sincere apologies to anyone who is, there’s nothing wrong with it, I’m just not.

I am an employers worst nightmare, to be completely honest. I think most Aspies are, I’m anti-social, anti-happy-ass-bullshit, BUT, I work hard, fast, and I am damn good at what I do. The latter would be why I’m still employed. Luckily, my boss isn’t pushy about social shit and tends to avoid a lot of it herself. If I had a boss like my husbands who forces you to attend every fucking social event there is I’d have quit long ago. Sorry but drinking beer with the entire IS department is just not my idea of fun, now if you’ll excuse me I have things to do AT HOME. 🙂 I will have a hard time moving up the corporate ladder. But that’s okay, around here you generally have to be super social and a total kiss ass and you have to suck, well, you get the point. I’m content to do mindless stuff until I move on to better things of my own.

I just wish the server wasn’t down.

I tried to go back and do the emind course, I really did, before I opened up my od again I went there. I logged in and started the test I didn’t finish last time. I ended up closing it though because after question ONE I had a strange desire to throw things. I’m halfway through this one that I started back in like April. I only have to complete one this year to meet my bosses expectations at least. I’ll try to get through two, at least.

*repeats mantra to self* only an hour till lunch, only an hour till lunch.

*looks over at fish*

Oh yeah, my betta that I keep here on my desk at work, he’s a riot. He’s constipated so I brought in a green pea for him today. I peel it and give him two tiny peices from the soft inside and fast him for two days when this happens and it clears up. He’s a riot though. He LOVES peas. I hate peas so I don’t know what he see’s in them, but he loves them. This morning though, he missed part of one bite and lost it down in his marbles. I left it down there since he’d had enough to do the job but he couldn’t leave it. I caught him digging down in his marbles. He couldn’t get at it and was getting quite frustrated. Finally though, he did get it!! He grabbed it and swam around happily chewing it. Go Clyde! Now though, he keeps looking for more. I keep looking over and he’s poking around in his marbles looking for more pea. 🙂

*looks around*

*answers phone*

Dammit, my boss called and the problem with the CMS server is serious. It’s going to be down awhile. *pouts*

Edit 12:40pm: Yippee! I completely finished one EMind course.