3/15/04

I talked to the people that are handling my disability claim today. They had to ask a bunch of questions that I really didn’t feel like answering for them. But I did. I think as long as my therapist agree’s that I need to be out of work right now my claim will go through just fine. My therapist understood my problems exactly and seemed understanding of me not being able to work right now so I think it’ll be fine. I don’t know when my case-worker is going to call him, probably tomorrow.

I think I’m going to be going on anti-depressants. My therapist mentioned that the people that pay my disability and my insurance company will probably scream if I don’t take medication. He said he didn’t want to force them on me but they might and that I should be prepared for that. He said that according to them medications are wonderful and great, they think Psychotherapy is much too slow. Today when I talked to the people about my disability they already started asking about medications and stuff so I think I’m just going to just ask for a prescription on Wednesday. *shrug* Provided I don’t have some kind of scary reaction to the medication they can’t hurt. *shrugs* And besides, if they can bring me up out of this rut I’ve been in maybe I’ll be able to get better faster.

I can’t feel anymore, well I can, I can feel sad but that’s it. Even when I laugh I don’t feel that happy feeling that I should feel. I was telling hubby last night that I think my endorphins are broken. 🙂

Only good news I have to report is that my car left for the shop today:

It’s finally getting fixed! That should make me happy but *shrug*. Right now I just fear the bill for this. heh, fixing my car is never cheap, hopefully this will be the last time it has to go to the shop. Almost everything under the hood is new, the engine is newly rebuilt and everything. Other than the headgasket the only other problem we know of under the hood is a cross-threaded spark-plug hole. There might be another problem though because it overheated just before the headgasket blew. *shrug*

Anyway, I’m going to quit rambling on and on. Hubby should be calling from work soon to tell me he’s on his way. I’m going to see if I can motivate myself to cook something. I haven’t cooked anything in days, I just keep having hubby get take-out.

Oh yeah, and thank-you to everyone for all of your support. I haven’t been good about replying to notes lately but I really appreciate you guys. *hugs to all*