3/11/04

Yeah, so I went to my appointment, I didn’t want to, but I did. I was sitting on the couch at home waiting for hubby to pick me up and I thought I was going to throw up. I was getting dizzy and I had to walk around the living room, a lot to keep from feeling like I was going to pass out. I started feeling really anxious sitting in the waiting room too. So anxious that I made hubby come back with me because I knew I wasn’t going to be able to do a lot of talking at first, and I was right.

Strangely enough, I like this guy. He’s really old, but that’s not really a bad thing considering it means he has 20 years of experience, how can you go wrong? He read me like a book, which was disturbing and relieving at the same time and I think I’ll be able to do this. Don’t know if I can go alone next time, but maybe. I go back next Wednesday at 8pm. All I have to do is get my disability claim though AIG now. I don’t think it’ll be a problem, the doctor understood why I didn’t want to go back right now and everything.

I’m feeling a lot better, I can do this, I’m going to regain my self-esteem and in time, my life. I wish I’d started it a lot sooner!

And on top of everything else being there makes me want to be a Psychologist myself even more!